Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Hi!!

Thanks for missing me girls:-) And special thanks to Kodi’s mom for her humorous email and want to check on me.. And thanks Sush for your email. It was very nice of you all to leave message asking for me:-). It means alot to me:-) Thanks..

On March 2nd I was about to post but we went out and I thought I would post in the morning. 2hrs later we got a call that my FIL passed away. We were in toys r us and hubby came to me saying, “Dad passed away and I have to go to India”. His Father was sick for few months still it wasn’t expected and in the past we talked about hubby going to India he always said that he can’t go cuz there are lots of things going on here, his job & study related, so he won’t be able to but when he said he had to go It was so unexpected and I was scared. Yes, scared because I can’t live alone. I couldn’t go with him because somebody has to take care of the stuff here.

Anyways, he spent most of the night finding ticket online & I spent thinking how am I going to spend 2-3 weeks alone:-(. Days are not a problem since he is never home but I am so scared to be alone at night. He left the next afternoon for 2 weeks. I hardly slept that night and almost all lights were on every night until hubby came back.

Next day started as usual but around afternoon I started to get scared thinking of being alone at night. Two night of not sleeping made me very tired, zombie alike, and another sleepless night was on its way. That night around 1:30 I got a call from my Bhua. It was my bhua's FIL's death anniversary and they were thinking of going to temple but they found out that my uncle's older brother died in his sleep:-(. His wife went with morning tea to wake him up on Sunday but he didn't respond. When they took him to the hospital, they said he died 2 hrs back.. I wonder if he had woken up early to go to work he might have been alive? He died the same day as his father, 2 years later.. It was just so sad and I felt worse. They didn’t have any kid and they adopted his niece but she too died few years back at the age of 14. Now they had one adopted son who was very very attached to him. I kept thinking of everything when I met his 3 years ago:-(.

I couldn’t sleep till 4:30 in the morning and was up around 8 cuz kids were up by then:-(. The whole time hubby was in India I waited till morning to sleep and all day I was like a zombie.. Even now when he is back I still can’t sleep till late:-( A’s school was close and I was keeping them busy.. I hardly had time to even check email. I was online 2-3 times just to pay the bills & all. I wanted to check my blog but I knew once I see comments I will have the itch to respond & kids were really keeping me all busy so I thought I will check once they are asleep but A never slept before 1 in the morning & then I was too tired to even think about the blog.

Even if I couldn’t be online I still thought of everybody & I always though I will at least read few blogs but I couldn’t even do that. Hubby was back on 17th and I thought of updating my blog but he had jetlag & it was difficult to make kids not bother him all day long. Next day he had to arrange stuff for his seminar & he left again on Tuesday for another 3 days. He came back on Friday night, actually around 4 in the morning because there was smoke coming out of his original plane then they had to switch the plane. Weekend was busy. Yesterday was Ashtami & I had to do kanjak and now here is an update from me:-).

I still can’t sleep till 2-3 in the morning & days are still very tiring.. I hope everybody is doing great. I will check all my favorite blogs once I am out of my zombie mode;-).

Hugs

16 comments:

nz said...

Hey Girl, sorry to hear about your FIL. I too am scared of being alone at night and when hubby is away I sleep with all the lights on too and dont actually sleep untill its dawn. I never talk about it thinking about people's reaction, you are brave !

I hope you recover from your 'zombie mode' soon, untill then....take it easy :-)

Asha said...

Hi G! I am so sorry about all the tragedies in the family, my condolences to you and your family.Hope you and your hubby take it easy and slowly come to normal as we know.

Arvind is on call often since he got his Med. degree so I am used to it.I can live alone for months if I need to.Anyway, take care and relax,don't worry about blogs and commenting.Hugs.

@ said...

G, good to have you back...boy, nasty month, eh? you sound very shaken up. take care now and rest easy...now that we all know you're ok, we will wait till you recover from zombie mode.

itchingtowrite said...

hey take care.. my condolences

Ganesh Ranganathan said...

my deepest condolences.....

my great grandmother passed away this month...she was near 90.

Hope you get back to normal very soon....

Sush said...

Hmmmmm... i understand.. that must have been one rough patch.. sometimes when something goes wrong everything else seems to take a lead from it and then go topsy turvy.... just relax and take care...

Nice to see you back and posting which means that you are slowly getting back to the routine...

my deepest condolences and God bless you guys.

Orchid said...

First, I am sorry for all the lpassings in your family.
Second, I can understand your fear of being alone ..I am like that too , hate it! But that said, cheer up, now hubby is back and it will be routine soon...get some rest and start posting again, we miss you :)

Deepa said...
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Deepa said...

Sorry to hear the news about your FIL. Heartfelt condolences.

priya said...

Sorry to hear and hope things come back to normal.

Gauri said...

Sorry to hear about your FIL - G.

You take care girl !! I can well understand the fear of being alone - sometimes it does get to u.

Take care and hope to see u back in action once out of the zombie mode.

Hugs

Gauri

A Little Light said...

Hey Mof2,
Glad to see u back!
Take care!
DR

mommyof2 said...

Thanks for your comments girls..

Jay said...

Hi mommyof2. Sorry to hear about your FIL.

trupti said...

Hi..Had no idea all this had happened...I hope you and your family are in better spirits now...

Take care,
trupti

Manisha said...

I just read this and I am so sorry about your loss. But you made it and you are a stronger person because of it. Make sure you get your rest. Your children need you to be alert, attentive and happy. Easier said than done, I know.

We went through something similar last Jan when my f-i-l passed away very suddenly. We had just moved to Colorado barely 2 months before this happened. We were all in a state of shock. My daughter suffered the most. Not only had she lost all her friends, now her Dad was also suddenly gone for 4 weeks. I couldn't sleep at night and was a zombie during the day. We hardly knew anyone in the neighborhood as we were so new. But it was amazing how my new neighbors adopted us and helped ease some of the pain and loneliness.

Take care and hugs to you from me. :-)