New family

Gudiya is having constipation problem since we moved here.. We gave her stool softener, laxatives, took her to doc which ended up having miralax everyday and not drinking milk at all and the problem is still there. Last week we thought of giving a last try and decided to put medicine in the other end before taking her to doc who we know would want us to go for some strong med. Anyways, we tried it last week and after lots of crying and resistance from her we were successful and within 10 minute she “went” 3 times. Then another 3 days and no potty business. We told (made) her eat more, drink more and threaten to give her butt medicine otherwise:-) The other day we were telling her to eat more and she said

Gudiya: I want to get a new family…
Hubby: What?
Gudiya: I want to get new mommy, new daddy and new Bhaiya.
Hubby: Why?
Gudiya: Because you all make me eat, eat, eat and drink lots of water then give me medicine.
Hubby: But Its good for you.
Gudiya: But I don’t like it.
Me: Then try to go potty everyday and we will stop doing all.
Gudiya: I try everyday but it doesn’t come out but I go pee everyday. I don’t like you guys (crying)

Then yesterday we had to ahm put medicine there.. She was crying and didn’t want us to do that.. A was putting songs to distract her.. Hubby was trying to talk to her and I was trying to finish putting medicine but she wasn’t letting us.. She was crying loudly saying she doesn’t like it, she doesn’t want to medicine but we had to since it was already 4 days since she went potty.. She was very loud so I yelled at her thinking what the neighbors might be thinking of us and continued tried to use the medicine but she wasn’t letting us. I yelled at her and tried to turn her but she just sat there refused to move. In between all the angry looks from me, yelling from hubby and scary words like "shots" and "doctor" from A, she looked at me and said

“Are you my mommy?”
What!!!!
“Are you my mommy?”
(hubby & A were laughing)
I don’t want medicine.. I don’t like it..
Then you have to go potty..
I will try.
But its been 4 days.. you have to take medicine.
No, I don’t want to. Please mommy, I love you! (Kissing me) I love you so much.. I don’t want medicine..

(After 40 minutes of trying she didn’t let us use the med..)

*Sigh* okay, we have to go to doctor tomorrow and don’t cry if he gives you shots..
Will they hurt?
Yes.
A little bit?
No
A lot?
Yes
No, I don’t want that.. I want the medicine..
Now, I don't want to give you the medicine.
Please mommy.
No.
Please mommy..
You want me try again?
Yes..
Will you cry?
Yes but is this the last time?
If you let me put medicine there..
Mommy..
Yeah
Mommy, hurry I have to go potty..
:-)

And she went potty without the medicine but the episode left a hole in my heart..

I will never forget this.. I mean, she is 4.. don’t know anything but she thought of getting a new family and questioned if I was her mother just because we were trying to make her feel better.. What will happen next.. *sigh