Absent from blogging..

I was absent from blog world for quite sometime. I thought it was going to be a short break but it turned into a very long one.

The main reason of my absence was a guest from India, who was gonna stay with us for 4 months. He was vegetarian and we hardly cook any veg food or let alone 3 meals a day. After he came, our household turned into pure Indian one, where I was just cooking Indian veg food for him, regular food for us, cleaning and taking care of the kids. I thought I will be free after that but then hubby got job in KS and we had to put our house on sale and start packing. Well didn’t start packing right away as we were gonna move in July-August and it was march end, so decided to take a little break. Went to places we hadn’t visited for a long time and the new ones that we were planning on going for a long time. Between house showing, little packing and going out, I didn’t get chance to come back.

Right when I was thinking of writing a post something strange happened. One day I was done feeding kids at night and put them in the bedroom so that I could eat, all of a sudden my heartbeat went up and a warm rush went from my feet upward. I didn’t know what was going on. It stopped in a few seconds. I thought I was having heart attack. Hubby was out. Called him to come home. By the time he came home everything was fine. Didn’t go to the hospital thinking whatever it was, it was over, why bother the kids late at night. Then it happened again the next afternoon and we went to ER. They did all kind of tests but couldn’t find anything. Came home 2 o’clock at night. It wasn’t easy even though I told hubby not to come to the hospital and told him that I will call him when its time to come home. ER report said it was because of the stress but I wasn’t feeling any stress so told them that I am not going to take any stress medicine with tons of side effects. It happened again 2 days later. Went to ER.. same thing, they couldn’t find anything. Hubby kept saying there is nothing you are fine, its all in your head. Go to India for sometime.. Yeah rite, just get rid of me the minute you get chance ;-)

I made an appointment with my doc to see if he could find something but nope.. Went to heart specialist, every report came out ok.. But I was having dizzy spells, my heart was racing few times a week.. no particular pattern but it was happening. I wasn’t stressful but all this was starting to show effects. I was scared 24hr. that something was gonna happen and I was gonna die alone with 2 crying kids for hours as hubby was (still is) busy 18hr. with his work.. What if something happen to me how will I get help.. Even if I reach hospital they won’t be able to treat me if they don’t know what was going on with me. Change another doctor. He did every possible test he could. CAT scan. Individual scans of different parts but nothing.. I was still feeling all the symptoms. Found another heart specialist who looked at my report and said I was fine.. It was just the stress that was causing all the panic. With 2 kids this happen. But I explained that motherhood is not stressful for me.. I enjoy playing mommy, mean mommy sometimes but noway it was stressful. Went to a neurologist, got MRI done. Again nothing.. Now I was really scared.. Hubby kept saying it was all in my head. I spent months crying thinking about the kids if I die. Who will take care of them.. I don’t have parents or any family. From hubby’s side its only his mother but I don’t want my kids to be raised emotionless and selfish.. I was raised by my grandmother and it was the generation gap that killed my childhood.. Don’t get me wrong; I got lots of love, endless love but noone can raise you like your parents can. It is like I was never a child. I was born grown up..

Anyways between all this we sold our house.. moved from NJ to KS.

...to be continued….

Chanelizing his energy

Since last year I am thinking of taking A to some music, Gym or Karate class. Music and gym class didn’t happen cuz hubby thinks I am making him sissy. Yes, he calls it making him “Nancy & Suzie” just like Frank in “Everybody loves Raymond”:-) And even though we had 2 weeks free karate class coupon, which A got as summer reading gift, we didn’t go there either cuz hubby said he might come home and start punching Gudiya.

Since few weeks A is into kicking & breaking things. I was thinking of taking him to karate class so that he can enjoy kicking instead of getting yelled at by me and we got another 2 week coupon again:-) Now I am not afraid of him kicking Gudiya either cuz if he dare to kick her or punch her, she doesn’t need me to defend her, well most of the time;-)

So I called and schedule a class for him. We all went there. He got the uniform and was really excited..




And Gudiya was


Because she wanted to do haiya too but they don’t take anyone under 4..

He is going there since almost a week and looks forward to the next class. Hubby thinks we shouldn’t go there because It doesn’t look good if we stop after 2 weeks. I think when they offer to give free classes, not everybody join afterwards, so its ok if we decide not to continue with them. I like the place and the teacher but it’s a bit far away.

Initially I was going to take him to place which is just on the next block. So sent Hubby to check out and schedule a free class there but they don’t take anyone under 5. Reason; they give reading material and kids under 5 can’t read. Hubby told him that he can so he is going there on Monday. This new place guy has trained police and Marine people and very serious about the training. He told hubby that they are not like other training places who gives a new belt every 3months.. They are very serious about the performance and gives one to one attention. I want A to learn something when you are paying so much for each class but more than that I want him to enjoy and have fun instead of sending him to a boot camp.

The place he goes now, the whole time he is saying haiya and giggling and all other parents giggle with him. No matter how many time they tell him “If someone is attacking you would you be laughing? No, right, so don’t laugh”. He stops for few minutes and forgets what they said and start giggling again. He is having fun:-) Its so much fun even watching him saying haiya & giggling:-)

We will go to the new place on Monday and if the guy is very strict, we won’t join and he will continue going to the other place otherwise we will start here from Monday..

And we are trying a gym class this week too:-) Its for both of them so Gudiya will be happy too:-)

Gudiya’s First prize

Every summer our library has a summer reading program for kids pre-k to 5th grade. Last Year it was “paws claws, scales & tales” and this year “Get a Clue”. Even though Gudiya is not in that category still Librarian gave me the book log sheet for her and she got her very first prize:-) They had arranged a dance program before the award ceremony. kids didn't like the program that much but getting the beads necklaces was fun:-)

See I told you, dance pogram was boring;-)




Prize in their hands

Last few months-2

NY Aquarium

Coney Island rides (Next to Aquarium)

Story Time at our Library

Picnic Time

His First Contest

It was our library’s 100th anniversary and they had a Bookmark contest for each grade. Even though it was from K-8, they let the preschoolrs enter the contest too. A is not that good at coloring but that week I had a book called “where do Balloons go?” and that made it easier to draw:-) He made a party theme bookmark with cake, hats, streamers and confetti. I told him that its our library’s B’day and we have to make a card. I didn’t tell him that it was a contest and if he does great he might win the contest. I told him to do his best and try to make a nice card for our library who let us borrow lots of books, arrange story time twice a week, art class and lots of other interesting events throughout the year. Everyone is so nice there and we just want to say thanks by making a card for them and the library.

“Just like we made card for you and Daddy on Mother’s day and Father’s day?”

Yes:-)

They had all day event with really wonderful programs like Mother Goose, puppet show, Special story time, Bubble fun and Art time. As soon as the last event ended and we were about to leave, the librarian said “Its time to announce the winners (one from each grade).” By then I didn’t even remember about entering the contest and I knew there are lots of other kids whose mothers spend hrs. teaching them how to color and they color almost perfect. One of my friend’s daughter, who is a year older than A, can color pictures almost perfect. Every week I see my friend sitting with her teaching her how to color while I am trying to argue with Gudiya not to take all the crayons and let others use them too. A colors ok for few seconds and then start doing silly stuff but he is good at drawing stuff since drawing takes only few seconds;-)

Now I was sure that my friend’s daughter would win. That day she told me that she drew a book & cake and I thought since she drew something related to library(book) and celebrating(cake), she got it right and its everything they are looking for. I had also told A to draw something related to library but he wanted to draw only the things he drew so I didn’t argue. My friend said that her daughter A already told everyone that she will win and I agreed with her knowing how well she is at coloring. So I told her that even though I didn’t see her bookmark but I am sure she will win too. So when they start announcing the winners I told her go ahead cuz they will be calling her name soon but they called A’s name instead.

I couldn’t believe it. The librarian called A and gave him his prize. I didn’t tell A about the contest so he didn’t know what he was getting prize for. I offered my friend the prize since her daughter was so looking forward to it and A didn’t have any clue. She said she had already bought something and wrapped it for her at home so it was ok. A opened his gift right there and it was this..

(Where is my prize?)

It was his first competition and since he won, I explained it to him what that prize was for.
“They had a contest and so many kids made bookmark for the library. Everbody did a great job but they liked yours a little better.” All he said was

So I won and Gudiya didn’t?

Yes.

That’s Ok Mommy, I will share my prize with her.

:-)

To make it more special for him we took him out for dinner and Chuckee Cheeses :-) And the next morning I put 2 wrapped things (1 for gudiya) under his pillow and told him “Since you did a great job making bookmark and shared your prize with Gudiya, Jai-Jai left these for you”:-)

I never thought that he could win otherwise I would’ve made a copy of the bookmark or at least take a picture of it.. He ia getting another award next week for the summer reading program. Everybody who reads certain number of book during a particular period gets the award.. So both will be getting it this time:-)

Here are some pictures of that day..