Was I Mean??

After the other day’s argument I told him that if he has that much work he don’t need to come home early (he work from home-first floor), I will give him dinner just like lunch.. Prepare a plate & call him then he come from the backdoor & take it downstairs..

So yesterday he came home and this is what happened

What are you doing here? Done with your work?

Ab kya, Im home now.

Well I told you can work as long as you want & I will take care of the kids..

No, its ok.

NO, We are in good mood and every time you come home either you spank A within 5 minutes & make me mad or you piss me off. So if you have lots of work to do you can go downstairs and don’t worry about us.

You can cook & eat and I will take care of the kids for an hr...

Well I am almost done anyway and I would like to work happily not pissed off or under pressure and feeling guilty that you are home because of me.. So no need to do that for me..

You sure

Yes.

Then I spend 2 hrs. cooking, doing dishes & other stuff, and though he might be hungry. So made berry smoothie (he doesn’t like anything so if I say it was his favorite, I would be lying.. He can live on milk & bananas.) And called him..

I fed the kids while he was in the kitchen & he offered to feed the kids but Nope, I didn’t want his help.. (I was still pissed off from inside). He was eating and I did all the night things for kids, peepee, diaper & wash them and put them in the bedroom. He even offered to do that which I usually like cuz I feel relaxed when he does that 10-minute thing. It’s a change for me after all day of doing the same.. But not yesterday.. I didn’t want his help at all.. In 10 minutes I finished eating my dinner.. He wanted to go downstairs for more work but now I wanted to have tea without any interruption.. So he stayed even though I said he didn’t need to “I will drink after kids are asleep”. So he was with kids & I had tea and did the tag;-) then went inside & spend 20 minutes making both of them go to sleep so that I can watch tv on mute & feel peaceful:-)

Now even though we argue it doesn’t mean I don’t love him (I don’t know about him though). He is a great guy who help me anytime I need but only problem is that he is emotionless & everything is a chore for him.. By everything I mean “Everything”.. And that bothers me sooooooo much..

And I made up my mind now.. Until he wants to stay home, we don’t need his help. So I thought he will be working late today too (yes he has too;-) let me make food which is more filling so Im off to making thai food for him;-)

Do you think Im wrong? I mean if he is not willing why bother making him spend time with us.. Kids are always happy to see him but they don’t care if he doesn’t come home for a day or 2.. Until I go in the bedroom they don’t even sleep with him.. I tell hubby that he needs to show interest in them cuz just sitting there watching tv with them is not all they want. Other kids wait for the dad to come home & spend time but not your kids. But he says, “Aise he hota hai”. Nope, Aise nahi hota.